As the New Year approaches, I accept that il never meet you again. Il never hold you, il never share a joke with you and we’ll never be together in love again.
I won’t lay with you or hear you snore, I won’t run to you when you walk through the door.
I won’t tease your breathing, I won’t watch you while you change.
I wont miss your smile and I won’t think of your eyes.
I won’t hold your hand while you drive, I won’t let you stroke my belly.
I won’t tell my baby he’s pretty, I won’t kiss his cheeks.
I won’t rejoice with your wins, I won’t weep for your loss.
I won’t humble your arrogance, I won’t strengthen your weakness.
I won’t encourage your positives, I won’t dismiss your negatives.
But know that I loved you. And I loved you wholly. But to tell you I loved you directly is accepting that I have lost the battle. I never wanted to lose you, not in a million years.
I loved every part of you. But I cannot mourn that which does not belong to me. And you are not mine to mourn.
Our chapter is over, but you have made the past year a very important time of my life. And il never forget you.. no matter what happens or how our days will end, I won’t forget you. I won’t forget our memories, the good the bad, the arguments, the joys, the sadness.. I won’t forget any of it.
I won’t let myself break in your absence.. I won’t let myself run because I was denied a love I couldn’t live without.
Il never tell you I love you again. I’m never going to hear you say you love me.. I will never speak of you again.
Happy New Year – may new beginnings come to light ❤️