Degraded to a level that I don’t love myself. I don’t love anything about myself..
Pathetic. Loser. Weak. Weirdo. Psycho. Disgrace. Joke. Failure. Selfish. Shallow. Stupid. Irresponsible. Immature. Boring.
My nights have become complete terrors now. I can’t hold back the tears.
This is no longer a question of my divorce, and how my husband didn’t want me.
I have a battle with myself everyday. I don’t even know where to start.
I can’t talk to people, I can’t look them in the face. I want to smile at people, make someone’s day, meet new people – but all I can do is look away and keep to myself.
I wanna see the world and become something – but all I can do is cry myself to sleep.
I’m losing my will here.. I don’t know how to be a good person, a successful person, a happy person.
I don’t know how not to feel so alone. I don’t know how to make people like me. I don’t know how to like myself.
This is getting hard. Life is getting way too hard.
People joke and question – why don’t you just kill yourself?
Because I wouldn’t even be able to do that.. I’m a failure in life, failure in love, failure as a person..
I don’t know how to fix myself..